2.6.06

Okay it's true, community is hell, sometimes - Jesus Army Life, Day 311

One of the things I've realised about community life is that if you share it with people who really don't want community (regardless of whether they live in the community or not) it becomes absolute hell.

Consider how many would not want to share their home with strangers in the first place - many have trouble sharing it with those they love. Sharing your home with those who simply don't want to love you, when you're doing your best to love them, is somewhat exhausting, not to mention entirely and completely, mindboglingly crazy.

This really can apply to those who live outside the community too. People can come round for all sorts of reasons other than Jesus; and where there is disregard for everything you as a people hold dear it is a nightmare. The atmosphere will be tense, people are holding their breath just waiting for the moment to pass, leaders are at their wit's end... again.

I'm not saying you have to be into Jesus to come round, many aren't and that's okay. But it does help if you appreciate that the community exists for a particular purpose. Christians believe that God's grace is available to everyone, the good and the evil. It's when you deliberately don't want to receive that grace that there's a problem. We, in community, can't really offer anything else.

In other words if you do live in community (as one non-community sage pointed out to me last night) you're going to get your heart broken.

And here's the rub: as a Christian you have to be willing to throw yourself into that situation again and again, because you have to be willing to trust that Christ will work in people. And of course he does. If I've started this blog entry somewhat negatively then let me end positively and say that we've seen some beautiful people walk through our doors and leave with even more beautiful hearts, quickened by the grace of God.

7 comments:

  1. Well Tschaka, all i can say is, thats life! Isn't that what being a radical christian is all about...? If you were part of a mediocre methodist or baptist maybe you wouldnt find this battle so often....but....then you wouldnt be who and what you are for God! It will all make sense in the end. You have to let people make their own choices and learn from their own mistakes, they'll only fail later otherwise!

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  2. Anonymous3/6/06 10:56

    Hi Tschaka

    Keep encouraged. There are many faithful people here for you to work with and find support from. Those who are struggling and appear to be failing are still loved by God. His faithfulness will see them, and you, through.

    And I want to say I am actually enjoying community at the moment! Miracles do happen.

    love Carole

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  3. Anonymous4/6/06 19:57

    Some of my most recent heartbreking moments in community haven't even involved a conversation! Someone i love walks in but clearly wants to avoid everyone so is out of sight in less than 8 seconds. my heart catches - i know jesus is reaching out and they're just blind to it all. They are hurting and yet seem to be running from the very people who can support. I really don't know how Jesus ever bore so much sorrow on that cross... I know he hurts far more than we ever do.

    Still, the heartbreak of community and real love is worth bearing if it means i can enjoy and love those who stick it out. I well love you tschaka and am glad we're in it together!

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  4. Thanks to you all for your encouragements. I am a bit discouraged I suppose - though I still love community-life. I'm just holding my breath for another couple of days.

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  5. Anonymous5/6/06 19:46

    sometimes God brings people for us to love for a season and we invest but it never seems enough, and then a while later God brings them back to finsh what he started.
    Nothing that is invested in God is ever wasted.
    i know that was so for me it took 15yrs of seeds growing underground before i was ready to say your will not mine Father. So do not be discouraged becasue all things work together and God never leaves things unfinshed.
    Tshaka yoiu would so not be happy as a middle of the road methodist
    you were made for community
    imagine how bored yoiu would be slumped in fornt of the world cup every night

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  6. I'd like to ask Squeezy_Ketchup if he or she is a radical Christian or more of a mediocre one?

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  7. Well Normal....probably neither...more of a out n out non christian i suppose!

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